Life...

Hello blog, it's me again! I decided a few days ago that I wanted to start blogging more often, and since you can only talk about TTC so much, I figured I'd make this a blog about my whole life, actually our life, not just the TTC part of it. I worked on my blog layout for a few days, and even made the background image myself in photoshop! I'm very proud of it! I think it's pretty cool! So, I guess I'll just give a whole life update since it's been a few months, and then we'll just go from there, so where do I start?

Chris and I are doing great! Of course no marriage is perfect, but I couldn't ask for a better man to be married to! I feel very lucky to have someone who I truely enjoy spending time with and still miss whenever we're apart. Not to mention someone who my family adores! Sunday will be the 8 year anniversary of the day we met, which we always celebrated as our anniversary before we got married. We don't really have any plans to celebrate. I have to work. I'll make dinner and then we plan on watching the Christmas special on Comedy Central by Jeff Dunham. He is hillarious! My friend Chelsea from work got us hooked on him!

TTC is going, but not going at the same time. Chris isn't really the type of person to "plan" sex, so we pretty much just DTD whenever we want and hope that maybe we got lucky. Still don't think I'm ovulating though. I should know within the next week if we "got lucky" this month or not. Today is CD30 and I've been spotting all day, which is the norm for me around this time of the month, so I'm thinking AF will be here in a few days. I've been thinking about maybe getting some progesterone cream and using it to see if it might help jumpstart my body into O'ing. I've been doing some research on it the last couple days. I'm still trying to decide if I wanna do that or not. But we're pretty much at a stand still, until I decide to quit being lazy and find another Dr.

We've been spending lots of time with both our families lately. Well, not really LOTS of time with my family, but we've seen them a few more times than we usually do because of birthdays. Plus, I will get to spend a whole week with them starting next Thursday, although it's not really a good reason why.

We found out a few weeks ago that my Grandma has stage 4 terminal lung cancer. She lives in Michigan, so we're going to spend some time with her before she gets too sick. It might be the last time we get to see her, so I hope we will get to make some good memories. I haven't seen her in about 10 years, so I'm excited to see her, and the rest of my family members. We're driving up. It should take about a full day because we're driving straight through. There will be 5 of us going, so we're going to take turns driving. Chris isn't going though, so that will suck to be away from him for so long. I've got to make sure he has supplies aka food to last him while I'm gone. lol

On a side note. We just got through watching The Bucket List. Them showing what you go through when you have cancer, like the chemo, throwing up, etc. just made me so sad and scared. Sad that my Granny is/was going through all that right now. Scared to know that one day my parents, or even I might have to go through that. I guess since I'm getting older now, I'm getting scared about losing my parents more than anything. After almost losing my brother in March, the fear of losing anyone in my family has gotten so much worse. I can't imagine what it will be like when they are gone. I don't ever want them to have to go through something horrible like cancer! It's just so scarey to know that death is something that is going to happen whether we like it or not, and we have no choice as of when, where, how. I try not to think about it too much, and I hope it doesn't happen for a very long time!

Other than my Granny Esther, both our families are doing good. My brother is doing great! Planning on getting married pretty soon. All our nieces and nephews are getting so big! Zayne is such a big boy! He's in the process of potty training. The twins, Zarah and Zayden, just turned 1 on Nov. 2nd and they're starting to walk! Skylar has been learning how to write! We're getting to spend alot more time with Syndi, and she's talking so much more now. The other day Granny told us that Skylar told her that I was gonna have a little boy. lol She said that he would really be her cousin, but he'd be more like a brother to her. She's such a character. She talks like she's 25 instead of 5! lol

Work has been kinda bad lately. With the economy and everything, they cut our hours horribly! I only got 17 hours this week, and 19 hours this next week. I usually get about 30-35 hours per week, so it's a big cut! It's a good thing all I have to pay for is our groceries and gas for the cars! I don't know what we'd do if we had real bills! As it is, I don't know how we'll afford any Christmas presents. We'll work that out when it gets closer to that time though. I did get some good news though! When I first put in for next week off to go to Michigan, I was told I could have the time off, but I wouldn't be able to use my ETO to cover it, so I was going to have to go without pay. But this morning, as I was walking in, the manager was asking about my Grandma and asked if I wanted to use some of my ETO time afterall, because he could probably give me about 20 hours if I wanted it. I said that would be great with Christmas coming up and everything! So that made me very happy! The new store manager came a couple weeks ago, right before they started cutting hours. He's really strict, and not many people like him so far. He seems ok to me, just not very friendly. Our old boss was such a people person! He was crazy, funny, and loud. I miss him so much! He was my favorite boss ever! Maybe once the new boss starts getting to know us all better, he'll open up more. We're also doing very poorly on our G-sat. scores (Guest satisfaction), which isn't surprising considering they only have 4-5 people in the store to cover all the departments, run cash registers, and service guests! Come on people! But enough venting about that!

I think I covered pretty much everything. Overall, life is pretty good, a few things could be better, but I'm just counting my blessings! I'm excited about the holidays coming up! I can't wait to spend time with our families, and just enjoy it. I'm off to bed now. Goodnight.